| Fuck Livejournal |
[Oct. 2nd, 2005|02:09 am] |
fuck this livejournal shit... it sucks
www.xanga.com/StrawberryxLimexSoda
^ read it bitches |
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| Strawberry Lime Soda |
[Sep. 27th, 2005|06:05 pm] |
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| |  loved | ] |
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| | Metric - "The People" | ] |
I love how you hold me.
How it feels like you're afraid the world will end if you let go.
I love how your lips feel on mine.
I love your warm breath on my neck
And your soft hands on my back.
I love how you hold me.
Hold on forever. Please.
I love you... |
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| The Heartbreak of the Past... |
[Sep. 20th, 2005|05:35 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  exhausted from everything | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Dashboard Confessionals - "The Best Deceptions" | ] |
It kind of sucks when you go from being best friends to absolutely nothing.
I talked to Linz today. I haven't admitted it, but I miss her ya know?
Nothing will ever be the same between any of us. And her post is right.
I wish I could relive April. At the same time this is kind of a good thing.
No matter how many times we "fix" things, everything is just going to get
fucked up again.
I haven't had any drama in my life since The Ghost Hunt Gang has split.
This doesn't mean we can't be friends; however, we can't ever be close
like we used to be.
I guess it would be cool to hang out every so often with each other.
Everyone owes each other a lot of apologies.
We all know this, but it's like nobody wants to be the first one.
I guess we've all kind of accepted the fact that we're all wrong.
I just don't want that drama back.
I'm happy with my life now.
Great boyfriend.
I love my job.
School next semester.
Family is all good.
Everything right now is just right.
I feel like I'm supposed to be here.
I don't want that to change.
Everyone knows that if they need me for anything... I'm right here.
I've always done everything in my power to do anything I could for
you all.
I'll always love you guys. I'm sorry our friendship had to take the turn
it did.
<3 |
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| Fuckin' Right Doggie |
[Sep. 8th, 2005|01:37 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  FUCKING WOOO!! | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Rilo Kiley - "Teenage Love Song" | ] |
Today is such a kick ass day.
I didn't have to work. Got my new liscence. Hair cut. Opened a bank account.
Very productive!
But the best is yet to come... WHAT THE FUCK IS UP RILO KILEY @ SONAR w/ EMILY!!!
Picking her up from Delone at 2:45. Stopping @ her house so she can change. Getting gas & Ciggs and BAYBEE
we are on the fucking roooaaddd!
Hopefully I wont get home too late and I might be able to catch Alex online so I can see him for a little bit. 'cause you know it's not like I spend any time with him at all *wink* haha
Kae well im gonna go clean out my car.
Peace the fuck out Sluts! |
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| *muah* |
[Sep. 4th, 2005|11:16 am] |
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| | happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "Does He Love You" - Rilo Kiley | ] |
everything in the world is wonderful now that I've found you! |
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| WTF ever... |
[Aug. 28th, 2005|01:49 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  FUCKING PISSED | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "Get It Faster"- Jimmy Eat World | ] |
p.s. everything sucks
especially YOU |
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| Bust A Bitches Face... YO |
[Aug. 15th, 2005|06:53 pm] |
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| | cheerful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Head Automatica!!!!!!! | ] |
so like....
If you plan to ruin my social life... make sure you back your shit up
AND make sure... that I havent ruined yours first. |
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| Mindless Idiot |
[Aug. 14th, 2005|11:08 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  devious | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Anything Norma Jeannnnn | ] |
GET THE FUCK OVER YOURSELFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF
No, this doesn't apply to Logan. |
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| So you've forgotten me.... |
[Aug. 10th, 2005|03:13 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  AHHHHHHHHHH | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Head Automatica- "Beating Hearts" | ] |
I HATE QUESTIONS!!!
you get one answered... another arises. why?
Lately I've found myself missing the unexpected. It might make sense if I actually talked to him...
seeing as I dont, and when I call he doesn't seem thrilled to talk to me. I'm confused.
why bother?
SYNICAL... that's what almost everyone is.
me included.
i wonder if he knows ill always love him. I hate that I always will. |
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| mmmkae |
[Jul. 17th, 2005|02:59 am] |
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| | tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | my chemical romance - Helena | ] |
went on a date today.
fucking amazing... but not totally sure what to make of it.
Jamie paid for EVERYTHING... he took me out for ice cream, then to the movies (the war of the worlds) then he took me bowling. He opened up my doors for me and we talked about a lot. So far it seems we have a lot in common.
But like I said... not totally sure what to make of it. Kind of an awkward ending. No hug.. No kiss.
My dad was in the driveway however... that complicates things.
I hope him and I go out again sometime.
Im not gonna push it though. The normal call and say thank you... call and say whats up... we'll see if he wants to hang again.
I want this to work. No rushing. It has to be good. He's way to great to not have this be good.
AH still confused
Kristen came back from the beach today. Shawna and I are super glad. We missed our kristen.
But there is a lot of family issues going on for both of us. I might not have a home at the end of the month, but whatev... one day at a time.
p.s. my computer is broken... IM NOT DEAD. That being said... I wont be one much.
Peace
exohex |
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| Whats On Muh Mind |
[Jun. 11th, 2005|01:40 pm] |
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| | sleepy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Ciara - "One Two Step | ] |
I haven't updated in fucking forever....
I just get sick of the bullshit and drama everyone talks about each other on here. Why does everyone post shit in their livejournals? Not anyone in particular either. It's everyone... I'm sure I may have done it a few times. I dunno it just gets irritating reading about how people hate other people. Okay so if you hate someone... tell them to their face... and tell them everything you think about them. End of story. What's the use in dragging it out and causing drama?
I'm so glad I graduated last night. I won't have to be stuck in the middle of anymore horse shit stuff.
That being said... graduation... yessss!!! No more highschool!!!
I got to celebrate last night with the best people ever. Wow I was so drunk haha. A lot more drunk that I thought I was. Jimmy and Erin are like two of the most amazing people ever. I'm so glad that I met them.. I can see myself becoming extremely close friends with them. I LOVE YOU TWO!! Not only that, but they're two of the most gorgeous people I've ever laid eyes on.
Wow so summer is starting... great kick off too. Senior week baybeee! Yess!
I go down tuesday, unless I go down before with Erin and Jimmy we'll see. Otherwise... Kristen and Kayleigh and I are going down when Kayleigh gets out of Shepard Pratt.
Great week, month, summer ahead!!
CONGRATULATIONS CLASS OF 2005!! WE MADE IT!!
exohex |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 7th, 2005|10:36 pm] |
x D0 x WHAT x: juliann
Auto response from : i hate it i hate life i hate guys i hat girls i hate parents i hate god i hate everything what left now?
x D0 x WHAT x: no juliann this is danielle.... logan doesnt want to be with me.... he doesnt... he really likes you a lot.... and he wants to be with you so badly
x D0 x WHAT x: and i cant accept that.... i just i dunno..... dont think everything he has said is a lie
x D0 x WHAT x: its not
x D0 x WHAT x: please dont think that... that is only part of the conversation.... and like i want logan to be happy and he'd be happy with you.... just please dont think he's lying cause he's not... he wants you not me.... please please dont blame him and think he's lying
x D0 x WHAT x: he's not
x D0 x WHAT x: you should give him a chance.... i know.... he is so wonderful... and he would be sooo good to you.... he really would, just give him a chance
x D0 x WHAT x: he's such an amazing person and he really likes you .... and i guess it just hurts that he doesnt love me anymore.... just please give him a chance.... you really dont know how wonderful he is...
x D0 x WHAT x: i promise... and i wouldnt lie to you... i wouldnt i mean i know we dont know each other... but i mean this should say something... cause i love him and i want you to have him cause he'd be happy with you and he'd be so good to you and im sure you deserve a good person like him
x D0 x WHAT x: he loves me... but no more than a friend... and im just having a hard time facing that... that's all... i promise.... logan hasnt lied to you... he wouldnt do that
I swear I didn't mean to ruin anything. I promise I didn't. I just I'm hurting and I didn't want to let go. Everything above this is the total truth. As much as I want it to be a lie... it's not. He likes her... I'm just a memory. I just didn't want to leave it at a friendship. I pushed too much. Logan I'm so sorry... I really am... I just... I'm so so so so so sorry. I didn't mean for this. I promise I didn't. |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 4th, 2005|03:24 am] |
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| |  depressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Eighteen Visions - "Said and Done" | ] |
reaganxyouth88: why isnt it possible and why cant we
x D0 x WHAT x: it be possible*
reaganxyouth88: right?
x D0 x WHAT x: yea
reaganxyouth88: im awesome
reaganxyouth88: yeahhhh
reaganxyouth88: idk it is
x D0 x WHAT x: why?
reaganxyouth88: but
x D0 x WHAT x: i dont know is not an answer
x D0 x WHAT x: you have given me way to many i dont knows
x D0 x WHAT x: and im not taking it this time
x D0 x WHAT x: you give me an answer i drop it
reaganxyouth88: you can read remember how bout you use that skill and read what i said after idk
x D0 x WHAT x: but
reaganxyouth88: no
reaganxyouth88: idk {IT IS}
x D0 x WHAT x: but...
x D0 x WHAT x: finish your but
reaganxyouth88: i already put it out
reaganxyouth88: its in the ashtray
x D0 x WHAT x: logan
x D0 x WHAT x: come on
reaganxyouth88: hahaha im a comedian
reaganxyouth88: okay sorry
reaganxyouth88: but i am in this thing with juliann and if i just give up on her i will be hurting her
x D0 x WHAT x: but its okay to leave me hanging?
x D0 x WHAT x: how is that fair? why couldnt you think about that when you broke up with me?
reaganxyouth88: this is imposible
reaganxyouth88: i answer and you drop it
reaganxyouth88: but this is okay keep going
reaganxyouth88: because i was scared
x D0 x WHAT x: i dont get of what.... i never would have hurt you
reaganxyouth88: i was stupid
reaganxyouth88: i was convinced that if i didnt end it i would never be able to without hurting you even worse
x D0 x WHAT x: but why end it? thats what i dont understand...cause i know its still there... so what reason was there to end it?
reaganxyouth88: because i was scared that if i wanted to get out of it later on i wouldnt be able to
reaganxyouth88: i just didnt want to get stuck in it and have to hurt you even worse to get out
reaganxyouth88: same thing with juliann thats why she wont go out with me
reaganxyouth88: shes afraid of the same thing
x D0 x WHAT x: well i dont want to be your fall back plan if you and juliann dont work out... and thats kinda what seems like is gonna happen
reaganxyouth88: no
x D0 x WHAT x: cause you say it is possible with us... but her
reaganxyouth88: thats not
x D0 x WHAT x: im sorry... maybe this seems selfish.... but i know i care about you more than she does... I love you... and I know I do... and Im not scared of that....
x D0 x WHAT x: and I dont really believe in second chances.... and after everything the past few weeks... i should have said fuck this and fuck you... but logan.... I would take you back in a heart beat... if i was given the chance
reaganxyouth88: i forced myself get over you quickly and thats why i ignored you cus i knew if i talked to you more this would happen and and i liked juliann and i wanted something knew and if i wanted back with you it would hurt her and i didnt think of you im sorry
x D0 x WHAT x: even after all of this and everything everyone has said... i would still take you back
reaganxyouth88: i really like her and i want to be with her and i know i still love you deep down
reaganxyouth88: but still
reaganxyouth88: id like to have a chance with her and im not going anywhere with this so ill shutup
reaganxyouth88: im sorry you had to listin to me ramble for this long
reaganxyouth88: but i have to let my dad on now
reaganxyouth88: you should go to the diner tonight
reaganxyouth88: and stop by
x D0 x WHAT x: i cant
x D0 x WHAT x: im sick
x D0 x WHAT x: and logan i cant see you right now
reaganxyouth88: oh
reaganxyouth88: yeah that might be a mistake
reaganxyouth88: wait whhy
x D0 x WHAT x: i dont think i could even look at you
reaganxyouth88: why
x D0 x WHAT x: basically you said you love me but you dont want me
x D0 x WHAT x: if anything is gonna hurt me forever.... thats it
reaganxyouth88: thats not what i meant
reaganxyouth88: danielle that isnt what i meant
reaganxyouth88: im sorry if thats what came out but thats not what i meantt
reaganxyouth88: i just said that 3 times sorry
reaganxyouth88: please dont think that
x D0 x WHAT x: what am i supposed to think?
x D0 x WHAT x: bye
reaganxyouth88: no
reaganxyouth88: no
reaganxyouth88: im not letting you leave on that
reaganxyouth88: note
reaganxyouth88: that isnt what i was trying to say
reaganxyouth88: i dont know exactly what i was getting at but thats not it
x D0 x WHAT x: what do you want me to say logan?
x D0 x WHAT x: it's okay? I understand?
x D0 x WHAT x: well i dont
reaganxyouth88: just dont think that
reaganxyouth88: cus it isnt what i meant thats all
x D0 x WHAT x: heh okay
x D0 x WHAT x: reaganxyouth88: im sorry iwas trying to answer your question and it came out wrong and it may seem like thats what i was saying but its not and i cant explain things for you and im sorry if i could i definately would and you know that
reaganxyouth88: can we be friends though for now
reaganxyouth88: please
x D0 x WHAT x: i dont know if i can
x D0 x WHAT x: i dont know if i can take that
x D0 x WHAT x: knowing what i know
reaganxyouth88: i didnt mean to say all of that
reaganxyouth88: it was just coming out and i dont know what half of it means either
x D0 x WHAT x: but you did....
reaganxyouth88: i wouild really really like to keep being friends with you and maybe we can be together again but its all in time and i have to go now im sorry
reaganxyouth88: ill be back later
reaganxyouth88: i promise
x D0 x WHAT x: Logan you dont understand.... how hard it is for me to be friends with you knowing that you think that it is possible
x D0 x WHAT x: bye
reaganxyouth88: if i were to say i dont want to be with you and i dont love you anymore and its impossible for us to ever be together again you would like that more than knowing i still have feelings for you inside
reaganxyouth88: put this on hold i wont be long
reaganxyouth88: too long i mean
Someone, please explain to me why her feelings are the important ones. Why am I the one who has to hurt if I'm the one he "loves"? Why didn't he think of me like he is thinking of her when he decided to break it off with me? What is so special about her? |
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| Double You Tee Eff |
[Mar. 31st, 2005|10:40 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  sick | ] |
| [ | music |
| | 18 V - "I let Go" | ] |
Soooo it's been a hella fucking long time since I've updated his shit. Almost 3 months, but not quite. Logan and I broke up. Talk about major heart break heh. But I'm fine now. Just bothered by the fact that he seems like he wants nothing to do with me. Like I told everyone else. I confided in him with stuff... and I need him to talk to. I trust him and suff ya know? But it's like.. we break up.. and BAM! Who is Danille? Whatev.
So like I met Mike... funny story. He's Joe's younger brother!! For those of you wondering... I dated Joe in october. Something like that. haha. Now I'm talking to his brother. Funny... I had no idea till saturday. Oh well... he's totally awesome. I Heart Him. hee hee. He has to go away this weekend *pouts* soo that means i dont get to see him. But you know what! The Ghost Hunt Gang is totally going to Furnace Hills and Rosewood. Talk about ownage!!!
This past sunday we went to the house in Hanover where these 2 old people were murdered. Got some sweet pictures :-D Kay, times up... class over. Peace!
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